Sex Workers’ Rights Day: Emy Fem in conversation with Nikki and Mell.On October 19, 2019 by Raul Dinwiddie
Everyone has a business, a job. Well, usually…. For example, I trained in Bulgaria as a dressmaker/tailor and also as a jewellery designer. I can do this. But, what should I do now..? One needs to survive. I respect myself. I have made the decision myself to take the risk, to stand out there, outside, and sell my body… …but I do not have any other choice. This is money which we all have access to, which people who do not yet have all their papers in order can have access to. Something that in Germany is already difficult enough to do. This job gives access to money for those people who… yeah, who cannot organise themselves perfectly because they cannot work steadily and whatever, but anyways still have a totally normal job. It is difficult, it is also difficult, for me to live this life. To be scared when I’m standing on the street because our… well people say that it is not a business, that it is a bad business, that it is a dangerous business. I am not ashamed, I proud of the work that I do I am not ashamed, to stand on the street and offer my body. The problem, however, is that business is going badly
and I do not want this whore passport. So how do you feel about the “Prostitute Protection Law” that will be coming out? I don’t know what good this new regulation will bring, what the effect will be on the women. It will only bring illegality and provide us to pimps, and it had been good until now. Women could work on their own, they had business, they were not afraid. Yes of course there are many women who do not pay taxes, or have no business. But this new law is not a solution. It is like they are placing a stamp on our foreheads “Prostitute”. It is a form of control. They control us. I work for a peer project in an organisation called Hydra. In the workshops that we give in clubs, in brothels and in sex-cinemas, and we explain it (the new law) to women, and I am afraid that somehow they do not understand what it means,
and they do not want to understand what it means. For me, it is a forced outing. It effects me personally, and I do not think that any of the politicians considered speaking to prostitutes about it. They did not think to ask “What do you want? What is good for you?” “We can try to get you health insurance, to get you into the health care system because it is important.” Yeah. Because these women are often sick, I have
experienced this in the workshops that I give. We have already had this happening in Germany before; Nazism also required identification of whores, and this led to sex workers being hidden in camp brothels and many of them were involved in being mass raped. I have a bit of a problem now as I work in a studio, and it is owned by friends of mine, and if I were not to be registered then I would also put them in danger, and we cannot be sure now if this new law will give more control that allows for more raids. There already are too many raids going on and it will get worse. I also give workshops and they (the participants) speak about it. This means that I think if I didn’t register (under the new law), I would put my own workplace in danger,
and also put my friends’ studio in danger. It means that I actually have no way out of this. I can’t avoid the system. There is no way around this for me. It is dangerous for me to have my registered legal name to be there, my address to be on a whore passport. Others can see it, clients can see it. I am afraid, I don’t trust it.
I’m pretty sure my data will just show up wherever. We already know how they handle it now. Now it’s already problematic. It’s going to be much worse,
and I have no idea, I need to make a decision, what I need to do with this passport. Whether I should organise myself and work in an uncontrolled way, but that will also bring new dangers, or if I should play along and be in danger to be outed. Why? Why are they doing this? Why do they not want to help us? Why do they want to stigmatise us? Why do people only see what is different, what is ‘special’, the things that are different from society? Why do they turn us away, and stigmatise us? This is why I find it important to have a day like Whore Day
(Sex Worker Day) on which we can celebrate ourselves. I want to be respected as a sex worker, I want to be respected for my work, for the sexual, intimate or kinky services that I give. No one can get rid of this, never, I believe it is a job that exists since time began. I am selling my body in order to survive, and I don’t give a shit if someone doesn’t like this. It is not easy, but I am proud of myself.